Hi everyone!
I’ve been very busy since the last post.
Taking this new job was a mistake. I’m realizing now that they hired me to be a scapegoat. I’m in the union, so they can’t just get rid of me easily, but that suits their timeline.I’ve seen friends and family in these situations before, and at the end they’re unemployed. The same will happen to me, but not before I have a nervous breakdown. Apparently a few people have had those too in the past.
I’m looking for a new job. There’s one in particular that I would like, but I need to address the mad scientist look going on with me right now. the next few weeks are going to be a rom-com makeover montage as I start focusing more on how I present myself and brush up on my theory and law. I’m hoping by the end of it to look a little more like Drop Dead Diva and less like Bowser
The illustration and everything else is on hold for a while. I just need to get out. So maybe no new car or vacation-I may be looking at finding a place to live instead. I even considered applying for my old job, but my parents quickly pointed out why that was a terrible, terrible idea. Anyway, I must keep focused.
I don’t know where blogging fits into this. I like blogging, and have often sat down to write about what was happening, but I couldn’t find the right words. Even now, it feels strange to be writing. I’ve locked a part of myself away to protect myself and keep focused on the goal and I think somewhere my bloggy voice got stuck there. But I am reading your blogs, even Bruce’s when I can get off the campus network. Let’s look at the bright side of all this. I’ll get out, and finally get an internet service that doesn’t block Bruce’s Blog!
Deep, cleansing breaths. Today I’m going to Home Depot to get some boxes and organizational tools. Then I’m going to cook a big lump of pork that I bought. I don’t really know how to cook pork. But there’s a first time for everything. I cooked an entire chicken last week, and it turned out really well! I probably won’t need to buy meat again for the rest of my stay here. 
skybluestateofmind
/ January 8, 2012Sorry to hear about your work woes! It sounds stressful but you are doing something to change it! I am sure you will get out of the current situation if you are resolved to do so (and I agree with your parents that getting your old job back is a terrible idea
). My fingers are crossed for you!
As for blogging, I completely get how you feel. I have so much to write about, but then when I actually sit down, I feel stuck, and there is the nagging “what’s the point?” feeling. You just need to get into the groove. I’ve been blogging for a long time, and one thing I truly believe in, is that you blog for yourself. Unless the goal of your blog is to share info on a specific topic (a travel blog or food blog) or promote yourself (your other blog), your PERSONAL blog is for you, yourself, and you only. You blog to record your history and memories, your blog to vent and reflect, and you blog because you feel like it. If you gain audience along the way, great; if not, no problem. If it becomes a chore, then don’t do it.
Of course, I’d hate to lose your blog — I always enjoy reading it!
But I understand that you will need to focus on your priorities and that blogging is not one of them. However, when you want to talk sometime on this blog, you know we will be listening!
Enjoy the pork! I recommend roasting it in a slow cooker. Yum
Solitary Diner
/ January 8, 2012Good luck with the job search. My (completely unsolicited) advice would be to be patient, as you don’t want to move from one bad situation to another. Take time to find out what’s out there, what will work for you, and what you want to do.
I’d love to hear more about the search if you feel like blogging, but will understand completely if you need time away while you’re in the midst of the job search process. There are days when I sit down to blog despite not really feeling like it, and my lack of interest is usually reflected in the quality of the post. I’m trying to focus more on blogging when I feel like it instead of blogging all the time in an attempt to increase my page views.
Mel Heth
/ January 8, 2012All the luck in the world to you as you sort through and find your way. When I was stuck in a job I didn’t like, someone said to me, “it’s just a stepping stone, not forever.” Totally made it easier to deal with as I looked for something new. I knew it was only temporary. Hang in there, sister!
Bruce H.
/ January 8, 2012Strange that my Blog is blocked. Is it subversive … or a weapon of mass boredom?
There is a time to blog and a time to live your life. Sometime my blog becomes my life and that’s not healthy. Life has intruded on your blogging and all your readers, who happen to mostly be other bloggers, totally understand your situation and will wait patiently for your return. You have an audience who is willing to listen to you rant when you need to rant and who will console you when you need a hug and a shoulder.
I wish you the luck of the Rhinoceros be with you (They are lucky, right?).
Lia
/ January 9, 2012Ouch. Sorry that the new job didn’t turn out to be the step in the right direction that you were looking for. Just keep breathing and staying focused. I’m rooting for you that you’ll find something much, much better really, really soon. Good luck!
missmccracken
/ January 9, 2012I really appreciate everyone’s positivity! I am definitely hoping to post more this week. I have no idea why Bruce’s blog is suddenly blocked. Maybe because I spent a lot of time reading it during the retelling of the Camino adventures? Who can guess…
I’ll keep you updated- and thank you for understanding.